Monday 17 August 2015

Serendipity

This week was my first time to be part of an interview, ofcourse ive been interviewed before, this is not what i meant though. I mean this was my first time to be on the other side of the table. No big difference, but you sort of decide to calm the fuck down when you're not necessarily trying to impress someone rather you should be the one being impressed? something like that...


"I have been a haunted house. I have had things die but stay and I didnt know how to make them leave. And there were certainly times I didnt want them to leave because they were beautiful. They were no longer real but they were beautiful. They were bridges to brighter days." -Jamie Tworkowski


Then today, we were supposed to hold another interview, and during the last ones, I was usually just observing, and on my laptop half of the time. 30 mins before the interviewee arrives, I was informed ill be interviewing, and i panicked a little but i guess it was not bad, Ivana was talking aswell so it wasnt like it was just me asking so it kind of flowed well. It was interesting. Good experience haha.

I needed help, someone to give me a ride earlier this week to go do an errand in my previous place where i used to stay, its quite far and i asked a friend to take me. So he agreed, we were supposed to go, it got late and so I just went home. I was a bit upset. I mean we always make excuses for people, because sometimes you feel like no one really owes you anything and theyre just doing a favour, butt this makes me wonder why people no longer do things just to genuinely help or out of kindness? why?


"Silence says a lot more than you think." -Unknown


I know the place was far, and my friend had a point in saying that if he were to take me there then he'd rather run an errand for himself as well and i had to help out. I was stressed, what he was asking for in my opinion was not as important as what i had to do there nor more important than what i was going through emotionally and it upset me that he was only taking me so as to "hit 2 birds with a stone" do me a favour, and get his stuff done. If you think about it real quick it seems very reasonable, but regardless, people shouldnt be like that. If he werent able to run his errand that day there, he wouldnt have taken me and this is what happened. Monday, we couldnt arrange for what he wanted to get done there, and as i mentioned i was to help, but imagine i work for long hours, and when im not working, im worrying about my visa whch is still not done (within this week it will be though :D) and just a short list of other emotionally killling things. I just needed someone to help me a little you know? So monday i go home meanwhile  could have just taken a bus there earlier instead of meeting my friend and feeling lost and wasting time.

I wasnt gona ask again. Tuesday he contacted me and said we'd go. The pressure i was put on was unbelievable. ridiculous. After much contemplation from his side, live in my face (he suddenly felt sick) we went. got it done. But i would have probably been really upset if we didnt because it was getting late and it would have been another waste of time.


"Some journeys in life can only be traveled alone." -Ken Poirot


I dont know, I probabaly sound like a heartless person right now, but, im just wondering why people dont frequently help others without there being any gain? Help as much as you can, and when u r in need, it will come back. Karma exists. There should always be somethign to gain out of everything you do. Im nto saying be stupid. No! But have some heart. Empathy. Soul.

Nonetheless, my friend helped me out eventually, regardless i appreciated it. But this situation just brought to my attention. That no one really cares. If you have something, you should never rely on others. Rely on yourself because as a person that si trying to be responsible, you would have things to deal with and basically everyone else has things to deal with. Do your own things thats all. And dont rely on people. There is only so much other people can do for you. Im not saying that there is no luck, or that there is no kindness or whatever in this world no thats not what im saying. Im just saying that its better to be surprised by such acts of goodness rather than always being the person relying on others for everything! Anyway, After that journey i did feel reliefied so thank god its over and done with. Still have to go get a few things again but there really isnt any rush. Perhaps even next month or whenever id find myself free they could be done :) its fine.


"We have to dare to be ourselves, however frightening or strange that self may prove to be." -May Sarton


Penang. was there for the 4th time lat weekend. I love it. didnt do much. met a friend thats leaving soon. Some hardcore environmentalist. very impressive, so we just spent some time together and went for a movie with soem their friends and dinner. The fooooood is out of this world. Somethign about their high sense of spices in Penang. Its amazing!! Amazing.

I dont even need to do much there, just the vibes are enough. penang vibes. I really like that place. Ariived Sat. Afternoon, and left Sunday Night. very short but wasnt bad. Refreshing. I liked it. And i love Penang ahaha. This time around i was in a place called Sungai Nebong, a bit up north. My friend stays in a high rise appt. and from there i could sea the water and beautifful hills. It was nice. The weather is a bit better also. Of course, near the sea, better wind compared to KL.

Id try to do 2 more S.E Asia countries, for leisure. short short trips but fun-filled and adventurous kind of short trips :) before this year ends atleast then more next!! So elts save up and get our priorities right yea.


"Im in love with cities ive never been to and people ive never met." -Unknown


Time is running, and i hope the most out of it is done. Its hard but im trying. The year is almost ending. My list of things to do is still not complete haha. I need to meet a little bit more people and go on more adventures and still need to try and do many things! No worries :) But so far Im happy with myself, ive been trying so hard and I hope its making me a better person overall, hopefully wiser, happier, understanding.


Yesterday someone hurt my feelings. I was disappointed. We should always think before we speak, and someone once told me that its better to be quiet if you have nothing good to say. I now see the sense in that.

I was told that I dont care about anything anyway, and that i just keep it going. I immediately said "Thanks for letting me know what you think of me, I appreciate it." I didnt stand up for myself but this situation was different. did i have to? if after a decent time of knowing someone and u are genuine or try to n=be so with them and this is what they gather what do you say? This is a "friend". or atleast thats what i thought but he never fails to make me feel bad. I wont start to make excuses for him to make sense out of it. There is none. So i shouldve stood up for myself?


"There's a charm about the forbidden that makes it unspeakably desirable." - Mark Twain

Why do i have to. I know its not true, and if I genuinely like you, if i really like you and you say such a thing to me what do I tell you? Theres nothing to say...This person doesnt know shit about me, I realised. Its alright. Sometimes im in my own bubble and was that what reality looked like? I dont need people in my life that will make me feel bad about myself constantly. Constantly? Then theres something not right and its not worth it. Im not looking nor do i need this in my life right now. So if you say ill keep it moving, then hell yes I owe it to myself to do so. Let me just say, If that was even true why am I not back home? Why am i still here, trying to make something out of my life, enduring, pushing, putting things together. I dont ever want to hear bullshit like tht again, because then i will get mad at msyelf not even the person who said so. At myself, for wasting time. Hanging out with people that have no idea. Look its fine we cn joke and everything is cool, but for a erson to tell me that oh you dont care about anything? Excuse me what?? This is too personal. Dont fuck with me like that. You dont know or have the slightest idea what ive been through (im grateful.) I have agood life but ive been through things, life is full of challenges but hey bring it on.

You have no idea of my plans or what im trying to do (I thoguht you did?) and then this? I dont care about anything? What does a person even say? haha How do you reply? hahahaha

You start thinking what does this person think of me, and then after that statement, i see no good. I dont know. I dont like to be insulted like that or at all. Why you gotta hurt Papaya's feelings like that?! Shame haha

:) No i wont take it. My vibe was killed for a minute there.

I need reciprocity.

What is reality? Whats wrong with wanting to do things and having plans that do not necessarily seem conventional? then all of a sudden your a person thats not ok in the head? Your a person that is not realistic? YOU DEFINE YOUR OWN REALITY!!


"This longing, too large for heaven and earth, fits easily into my heart." - Rumi


Last Wednesday, was amazing. I had a really good time, on my own i think hahaha. I mean I was out with people, and i know everyone was having a good time, but I was having an awesome time. Everything just clicked inside me lol. Level of intoxication was perfect. Music was on point. Almost very good mix.

Where the adventures at! I still need to go see a waterfall. Next! :)


Xx

Sunday 2 August 2015

Something



Dont mean to be lovey dovey but I was watching a movie and one of the actors quoted this poem. I thought it was beautiful! Its beautiful. Rumi was beautiful haha. :) Wisdom. So much of it.



look at love


how it tangles


with the one fallen in love





look at spirit


how it fuses with earth


giving it new life





why are you so busy


with this or that or good or bad


pay attention to how things blend





why talk about all


the known and the unknown


see how the unknown merges into the known





why think seperately

of this life and the next when one is born from the last





look at your heart and tongue


one feels but deaf and dumb


the other speaks in words and signs





look at water and fire


earth and wind


enemies and friends all at once





the wolf and the lamb


the lion and the deer


far away yet together





look at the unity of this


spring and winter


manifested in the equinox





you too must mingle my friends


since the earth and the sky


are mingled just for you and me





be like sugarcane


sweet yet silent


don’t get mixed up with bitter words





my beloved grows


right out of my own heart


how much more union can there be




come on sweetheart


let’s adore one another


before there is no more


of you and me





a mirror tells the truth


look at your grim face


brighten up and cast away


your bitter smile





a generous friend


gives life for a friend


let’s rise above this


animalistic behavior


and be kind to one another





spite darkens friendships


why not cast away


malice from our heart





once you think of me


dead and gone


you will make up with me


you will miss me


you may even adore me





why be a worshiper of the dead


think of me as a goner


come and make up now





since you will come


and throw kisses


at my tombstone later


why not give them to me now


this is me


that same person





i may talk too much


but my heart is silence


what else can i do


i am condemned to live this life





i’ve come again


like a new year


to crash the gate


of this old prison





i’ve come again


to break the teeth and claws


of this man-eating


monster we call life





i’ve come again


to puncture the


glory of the cosmos


who mercilessly


destroys humans





i am the falcon


hunting down the birds


of black omen


before their flights





i gave my word


at the outset to


give my life


with no qualms


i pray to the Lord


to break my back


before i break my word





how do you dare to


let someone like me


intoxicated with love


enter your house





you must know better


if i enter


i’ll break all this and


destroy all that





if the sheriff arrives


i’ll throw the wine


in his face


if your gatekeeper


pulls my hand


i’ll break his arm





if the heavens don’t go round


to my heart’s desire


i’ll crush its wheels and


pull out its roots



you have set up


a colorful table


calling it life and


asked me to your feast


but punish me if


i enjoy myself




what tyranny is this




you mustn’t be afraid of death


you’re a deathless soul


you can’t be kept in a dark grave


you’re filled with God’s glow





be happy with your beloved


you can’t find any better


the world will shimmer


because of the diamond you hold



when your heart is immersed


in this blissful love


you can easily endure


any bitter face around





in the absence of malice


there is nothing but


happiness and good times


don’t dwell in sorrow my friend



- Mevlana Jelaluddin Rumi



Xx

Re-Intro

So many things going through my mind. Dont know where to start... Thats a challenge (I would have used the word "problem" but id rather say a "challenge). This is my only true source of really speaking my mind and sort of letting it all out, perhaps even venting a little sometimes and recording sort of whats going on with my life as a way of maybe one day in many many years reading what ive done before as well as just a platform to express myself, and/but when a lot of things are happening "in my mind" its kind of a challenge to organise the thoughts (but then again my thoughts were never meant to be organised, and never really were when writing here but it just makes it easier to write at times like this).


"Let them know im a supernova who can burn them every step they take because when it comes to you, I can charge up to a million joules and theyre but lackluster debris in our own galaxy when im the most radiant star and youre the constellation." - The Lunatic, The Lover, And The Poet.


Im having a rough time truth be told. I know my priorities at this very moment but its as if i zone out and loose track sometimes. Im having a rough time trying to understand myself. And im getting busier than usual, with work which just makes everything "harder" haha. Look im grateful, but its hard. Im lucky, but its hard. I know it would get better soon..My soul is yearning, for things. Stuff. Something. And im just trying to find my place? I need to settle, and that should be happening soon, but I also need to focus.

Everyone around me, has their shit together, or so it seems. That way, 'wasting time' is just an optional thing, because they can afford it (and now i sound like a rapper or a wanna be rapper from the ghetto wtf was that haha). Simply it seems ill be going back to my hibernating phase, for sometime, ill try. I mean, there is no option here and that kind of sucks. No actually there is, And i choose to 'hibernate'/keep to myself for some time :). maybe a month or so. 2 months. IDK.


"Just because I dont talk about it, doesnt mean I forget." - Unknown


Ive realised that whatever i was trying to achieve, I was achieving it the wrong way. Not really wrong way, but just not the correct way it should be done. To achieve what i was trying to achieve, purely, I should completely embrace myself, and express myself, smartly, and with no fear. Be myself and look forward to meeting people that are on the same path. To be myself. And to let go, or really try to let go, of 1) Negativity. 2) Desires. (Im not trying to be a nun, but go with the flow. When i say desires, i dont mean let go of ur desire to stabilise, or ur desire to achieve something, or the desire to make a change, or a difference - I mean other desires. Nonsense desires). Then those 'nonsense' desires would eventually be obtainable, in  an even better manner than the manner you would have tried to obtain them with at first. So I need to elt go of those desires and i strongly believe they will come in a much better form when their time comes. Those 'nonsense desires could be objects that you would like go acquire, or experiences that one may want to have etc but are not really necessary at the moment.

I dont know what Im saying anymore :)

I embarrassed myself today, and i feel sad. Sad about myself. Its one of the worst feelings a person can experience. I came back home, and a 1001 thoughts were going through my mind trying to analyse the situation and make sense of what i was feeling or the way i was feeling. I was feeling bad. Bad about myself, and so, ofcourse, as humans do, I started blaming, then i started self-victimizing myself. Then I realised, It was my fault. No one meant to make me feel bad, I did it to myself. I was the one that embarrassed myself, and there is no one to blame nor is it any ones fault but myself :)

I needed to be alone.

I know im not giving out positive vibes right now, but forgive me..I am not a positivity machine, and i feel down sometimes. (Althoguh ii wish that would have been awesomeness) Imagine. Basically nothing would affect me, no negative vibes or whatever. Id just be doing my thing. Being an awesome person, Being a good person to other humans, and thats all, no negativity would affect me and basically i just wont be affected by anything because my positive vibes would be never ending almost contagious haha. I just repeated the same sentence like 3 times i think? hah


"Self-love, self-respect, self-worth. There's a reason they all start with 'self'. You cant find them in anyone else. - Unknown


I refuse to allow any one to make me feel bad about myself. aia refuse it because i dont have time for that. If im on the wrong, no problem, but in general, I dont want or need people or someone to make me feel bad about myself or even hint it. Ive had more than enough of that already :) I dont deserve it.

The human mind..I wish i could understand. Maybe i should meet a neurologist? And they can explain things to me. Or a psychiatrist? That would be nice. Im just, uh, I need to stop trying to figure out everything. I need to slow down a little and focus on whats really important right now. Thats all.


"All you have to do is write one true sentence. Write the truest sentence that you know." - Ernest Hemingway

I know im missing something. Not missing like missing out. But missing something. Thats all im going to say. And its fine, people miss things all the time, but they keep going they dont make it the centre of attention or centre of focus in their lives. Instead they take on new things to take away their minds or divert their attention nto something else. Be productive.

I might be unconsciously hurt. But hey! Im fine :) Im more than fine. Whatever we go through its just to prepare us for greater moments and times ahead for us to be able to appreciate and that is beautiful.


"Watch carefully, the magic that occurs, when you give a person just enough comfort to be themselves." - Atticus


sometimes things feel like, im in a dream, for a few seconds, not a bad thing. Its ok. But tis like i lose touch with reality for a few seconds. And all that just happens in my head thank god haha. I like to connect with people but so,eti,es you meet people thatyou like and they kind of block you. So you probably would connect with them for a short while then they get scared and back off (o something like that, havent really completly figured out how it works but yea) then make u feel weird. This happened twice in my life and it probably means that either the person has some issues which is ok or that they are not ready. Im not an expert, but this is my theory haha.

Whatever you're going through, believe and know and trust that it shall pass. It will get better :)

I wrote this post yesterday and i was feeling blue, but im becoming more yellow today haha. Its fine! It will be fine (ok enough with the phrase, point received).


"I respect those who tell me the truth, no matter how hard it is." - Unknown


I spoke to my dad today, I sent a message on his phone, thinking my brother would get it, because he usually texts me through there and I thought maybe the phone is with him but my dad receives it. He thought it was for him, didnt mention names, and frankly it was alright, nothing personal in the message. But at the end I was like should I just quit and come back home. So I received a voice note, I open it and its from my dad! haha. It made my day. Look im normally a self-motivated person but that was definaately motivating. Im grateful and thankful regardless and despite everything and everything. But as humans, Its normal for us to feel down sometimes and I was. I guess i just needed to hear that. It fueled my spirit a little although i like to think my spirit and soul is constantly being fueled (with good vibes :) and everything awesome). But yea! He told me like 5 times, never to say I want to quit again. And thats True, Im not a quitter. The climb is always stressfull. Challenge accepted :)

Im happy. May all the light, positive vibes and energy surround us and be around us. Can you feel it? :) I do.


Xx

A Papaya In Cambodia

Before i start telling the Cambodia story. A while ago I borrowed money from a girl and I kept on postponing because I had some circumstances. Im not trying to make excuses but whatever happened happened. This person is now giving me a hard time even after settling. She says she is an emotional person, F*&% I AM TOO! We just had a conversation and I apologised 1001 times. What do you want from me? Im sorry, Im sorry it had to be that way but do you have to rub it in my face and make me feel like shit more? I just dont get it. I didnt understand her point. Uh I dont have time for this! Thing is I cant go to her place to personally give it back to her and its not like im being disrespectful or anything becausae yes I understand the same way she gave it to me personally, I should probably give it back to her the same way too. But I cant! I cant. If I could I would have also gone to get my bag of books!


"I like people with depth, I like people with emotion, I like people with a strong mind, an interesting mind, a twisted mind, and also people that can make me smile." - Abbey Lee Karshaw


So I asked, the only person I know around that area if they could help. And the girl agreed. She works, so she would only be available at night. And she said i should tell this girl to come meet her in a place which is 10mins tops walk from where she lives. She says she cant. What do you want me to do? What shouyld I dooo. I honestly dont think the girl would agree to go to her place and give it to her there, IDK.

Im confused. So when she called, she was just talking like a person thats victimized. Get over it. So difficult waw. Look I appologised, and its enough. Ima shit person fine. But circumstances sometimes are underestimated. Bsasically next time, think before you do anything. ?


"I dont want just words, If thats all you have for me, you'd better go."  - F. Scott Fitzgerald


So tired. I arrived today, was held in immigration for hours, after that instead of taking a cab or train i decided to take the bus to KL Sentral and it was only 11rm. From there I stopped to eat in a mamak because i was starving then took another bus that costed 2.50rm to One utama then walked home. Nice but exhausting. I feel slow, cant think straight, but im alright. Id really like to clean the room but no energy and will be having a long day at work tomorrow so Ill be going to bed extra early. Perhaps When I come back from work ill clean up.

I need to start looking for appropriate visas and applying. Got one month to do that :)

Getting visa to Cambodia from here was easy. Took one day thats all. So I left on the 24th of July, Friday and I arrived there in the morning. 10-ish am. I took a tuk tuk to the hotel that i had already booked online. Oh wait, I was stopped at immigration and asked to go to an officers room. Apparently Sudan is among the blacklisted countries to Cambodia what the fuck..Anyway they asked me some questions like how much money you got for your trip, duration, where will you be staying etc then let me go. That was super embarrassing and annoying. This fucking passport is not making my life easier jeez.

So yea, I took the tuk tuk. costed about 5 dollars.The guy was pressuring me to go visit the temples. So this is one of my observations, they like to pressure people and not in a nice wasy. Like have you been to this place and that place? No. You should go. Go tomorrow. We will get you a tuk tuk. Then you do this and that and this...Hello? Hold on, I didnt even ask forsuggestions in the first place. Calm down. I mean yea they are beautiful places and basically a person is missing out if they coe to Cambodia and doesnt see them, But what if a person just wants to chill at the hotel? and it happens what? A person might just want to be in the hotel and do whatever they want to do. Is it by force? So yea they pressure a lot and theyre rude about it. Its as if theyre hustlers by nature. So far, Lao people are nicer lol.


"I no longer have the energy for meaningless friendships, forced interactions, or unnecessary conversations." -Joquesse Eugenia


The hotel I stayed at was quite nice. Was about 24RM a night. Big room with a king size bed and a private tilet. Not bad at all. Cons: No a.c so I was literally evaporating the entire time I was inside and no windows to allow some breeze, so basically It felt like I was in a sauna. Then th water, for some reason is so rusty. It looks clean, but the smell is ridiculous. It oozes of iron! I read that in the reviews when I was first checking out the hotel online but didn't pay much attention to it. It scary. You shower and come out stinking of iron? Anyway so that's it.

First day, I blacked out a little after arriving- a few hours then changed my clothes and went for a walk. It was nice. I found a river, and walked by it, got some local sandwiches and a shake then stopped by a 'fancy' place and had a beer and some delicious dumplings. Then walked back home. Later on that night I wnt to pu street and got on a motor bike for the first time in my life. It was amazing but recently a friend of mine showed me pics of his leg with a bruise on it after riding on a motor bike and no it is not worth it so id probably have second thoughts next time I consider riding a bike. questions like 'how long have you driven (because ofcourse I wont dare drive on my own -yet) would arise and are u experienced and so on haha. Serious analysis and profiling will be happening.

I then met a guy at that pub street in a place called soul train. I didn't like him and I wont go into further details but however I managed to still try and enjoy my night and afterwards he didn't hear from me again and I didn't see him again. Good because I really just didn't like him for reasons ofcourse but not bothered to write about it because who cares. I don't. He was half Algerian half Italian and was born and raised in France. The entire pub was filled with French peeps that day and a lot of gays as well. Not trying to associate gays with French or saying anything just 2 observations that im noting down :) I was feeling vibes from the gay people and no im not gay but when I see a guy and he happens to be gay I almost can tell, most of the time, perhaps especially when we look at each other! Strange


"The saddest part about us is that we would break our hearts over and over again just to stay in love." - Unknown


2nd day I was contemplating whether i should go try that happy pizza/happy shake thing I heard so much about, although what the hell is there to contemplate there but a cute guy offered to buy me drinks at the pub he manages and i was like what the hell, ill come again for that pizza hahaha so yea. I went to yet another pub on my 2nd and last day..It was called mad monkey hostel and i went to the bar. No a bad gig, heard about that same place from 2 sets of different friends so i thought there must be something happeneing there huh? Luckily i met the manager there and he invited me so it was cool. It was interesting. The floor was transformed into sand so u get that beachy feel. Pretty cool.

I was quite nervous. Later on like 15 mins later i realise theres a huge board across me that says Grenade something with a list of countries and numbers next to them. So i asked what that was all about (And of course Sudan was not there because, i guess we havent reached that level of coolness yet hahah) and he told me its a shot u took and according to how many u take, ud get a point. So i was like Sudan here we go. Shots must have been a big deal because otherwise why is there a big ass board hanging there and ppl competing and wait, its called a grenade.

Interesting part is that now the drink comes and its a normal glass filled with red-bull half way, then 2 shots put on top. One is tequila and the other is that jagerbomb thing. So its infront of me and what i do is i proceed to take the two shots out of the glass, to start, because hello that seems like the most logical thing to do? I dont know i thought they were saving space or something bny putting the two shots on top of the glass. The guy was just like woah woah what are you doing? And i welcomed that question with a poker face look. He then shows me, and he takes the tequila shot out and lets the Jagerbomb shot drop inside the glass with the redbull. My face.. I was like Oh My Gohh that is so cool!! :')


"Show me your hungry soul and ill show you mine. Vulnerability is truth, our naked soul is love." - Kimberly Wadsworth


So i did the same. it tastes funny but man you feel good afterwards and Sudan ended up getting 2 points! Haha..Pretty sure next Sudanese ppl that come there are gonna be like who the f&%$^ did that! haha Awesome.

3rd day morning I left. Cambodians are sort of weird with me and my passport. they were all making a big deal out of it in the airport. First person- at security check point when entering airport to waiting lounges started talking in Cambodian and only thing id sum out of it is Sudan Sudan.Uhh he even calls a guy that was sleeping to come and see. At that point I was concerned and asked if there was a problem?

Then at luggage check point same thing happens and i just got pissed. Dont play with my nerves like that man! This one just said theyve never met a person from Sudan before. >.>

I know I said id write every Monday and Tuesday but my schedule is much more tight now since ive started interning.

Ill try.

Been feeling so down today. But ill be fine :)

I need to save up more and manage my finances better. Then I need to move out to my own place/room/whatever..I want to travel more and see more places i havent been to..Ill do that. Im fine now but ill be even better, much more better in Sept./Oct. Oh my the year is almost ending. Tie is flying :) Its crazy.


"Id cut my soul into a million different pieces just to form a constellation to light your way home. Id write love poems to the parts of yourself you cant stand. Id stand in the shadow of your heart and tell you im not afraid of your dark." - Andrea Gibson


Ive gained so much weight recently. Oh btw when I was in Cambodia I read this article in a magazine. You know those auditors page at the front? Yea, so the guy says instead of him writing he will just paste a piece written by a college student that they wrote for their entry. AN entry letter written by a guy that was applying for a college. man i need to organise my thoughts better, process them better before writing haha. Anyway it was a motivational funny kind of letter and it was just amazing. wanted to take a picture of it to read it again later but of course my phone batt was low. I even contemplated ripping the page and taking it with me but that wouldnt have been a good look. Rude. And it should be there because I hope someone else sees it and reads it and i hope it puts a smile on their faces the way it did for me. Fo that reason on my next post ill look for that letter and post it up here :) Pure awesomeness!

In conclusion, I didn't do much in Cambodia and this piece right here was rather boring but im determined to go again! Thinking of going to Ipoh on one of those coming weekends for a bike tour with a couple of friends. Should be fun :)

Xx